I woke up this morning amused. I went to bed asking myself why I felt so hopeless. I did just lose my primary income source. The death anniversary of someone I loved is right around the corner, but I had never felt this hopeless before.
When I woke up I knew the answer. I wasn't being mindful of my environment, the food I was eating, what I was watching, nor the conversations I was having. I had been binge watching The Walking Dead on Netflix. I had been spending all my energy on distractions and not healthy ones.
When you're in a transition state, it is so important to be mindful. The Walking Dead is a really well-written TV series, but the overarching message is "you're not safe." If you're in a transition state or have recently experienced some type of loss this can overpower your psyche.
So when I woke up, I had to laugh at myself. No wonder I was feeling hopeless even with all the love and support I have been blessed to receive. Be mindful of what you're taking in every day. Especially if you're in a vulnerable state. I have shifted my energy into focusing on those things that make me feel good, genuinely. Like my morning cup of coffee, the robust laughter of my son and his friends, the mischievous acts of my two adorable feline companions, and the beautiful people who reach out to me every single day.
I'm reminded to eat healthy foods, drink plenty of water, move my body in ecstatic joy, listen to music, and read inspiring stories. Life is too short to not do what we love.
Art: Becoming One, Vladimir Ilievski